Sometimes its not up to me to decide .
Because even if I choose to let you go ,
A part of me is still holding on to you and our memories .
I dont know how did you do it ; Forgetting everything so easily .
Dont I matter to you at all ?
I know what I did was a little too rushed ,
& I didnt think of your feelings . But did you think of mine ?
One year passed but Im back to this very same day .
The day that you didnt even care enough to stop me or even try to hold on to me .
Did you know how much that hurt ?
Knowing that I mean nothing to you when you meant everything to me .
But I doubt that you'll remember even a lil bit of this .
Cause your life is full of girls now , isn't it ?
I've learned to accept that fact , but can you not treat me as if Im nothing ?
If I cant be your everything then at least let me be a part of your something .
Because no matter what I do , its never good enough for you .
It can never be better compared to all the other girls in your eyes .
Oh and do you know how many people I hurt because of you ?
Cause remember , you threw away the key when you locked my heart to yours .
Now , what about all your promises to me ?
Were they all just lies that you made up ?
No , Im not blaming you . Im blaming myself , really .
Cause I thought you were for real , and I trusted you .
But it all ends as usual ; Me getting hurt .
And as for you , just forgetting like how you always do .
I really wanna pretend like nothing really did happen .
But Im sorry , I just cant do it .
Cause you mean the world to me and I love you .
I always have and I always will .
If you're reading this even with the slightest chance ,
I think you should know that this isn't a joke .
Cause baby , these words are written with my heart ♥